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Started by mstevens, May 17, 2008, 05:09:30 PM

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mstevens

May 17, 2008, 05:09:30 PM
Well, for being more of one that usual...

Tomorrow is my daughter's birthday. She would be 17 years old and likely making me crazy if she hadn't died at 16 months of a brain tumor.

I can't go out for a ride because I can't concentrate worth anything and am seconds away from road rage just emptying the dishwasher. As much as I'd like to go find out if my 620 really will go 140mph and as little as I care about consequences at the moment, the absolute last thing my wife needs right now would be to get "that call" from the police or ED.

I've had time to get used to this, and most of the time I'm OK (except for right now and at the end of September, which is when we took her off life support).

By Monday I'll be back to being my usual jerk of a self, but for right now I could use a little slack if I'm quick on the trigger, abrasive, or not making sense. In any event, I've already snarled at someone who made a lighthearted comment here and figure that's probably just the start. It might be best if I just didn't go online, but the DMF is such a good way to keep my mind off of other things.

Sorry in advance!
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2009 Ducati Monster 696 (Giallo Ducati) - Sold
2005 Ducati Monster 620 (Rosso Anniversary Ducati) - Sold
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ducpainter

#1
May 17, 2008, 05:13:05 PM
Don't apologize to me.

I get it.
"Once you accept that a child on the autistic spectrum experiences the world in
 a completely different way than you, you will be open to understand how that
 perspective
    is even more amazing than yours."
    To realize the value of nine  months:
    Ask a mother who gave birth to a stillborn.
"Don't piss off old people The older we get, the less 'Life in Prison' is a deterrent."


ducducgooseme

#2
May 17, 2008, 05:35:06 PM
No apologies needed.  Hang in there.
If you love your bike, set it free.
If it comes back to you, you've
probably high-sided.

red baron

#3
May 17, 2008, 06:06:42 PM
I've got nothing, good thoughts your way.





dp, never apologizes for his behavior.  [cheeky] (luv ya dp ;D)
"I believe there are more instances of the abridgment of freedom of the people by gradual and silent encroachments of those in power than by violent and sudden usurpations... James Madison

herm

#4
May 17, 2008, 06:27:40 PM
wow dude......... :-[

i hope monday is a great day for you
I'm here for a good time, but not a long time.

ducpainter

#5
May 17, 2008, 06:33:58 PM
There aren't too many here that can understand the kind of pain he's feeling.

Things can hurt you...

you can't get hurt any worse than losing a child...there is nothing...worse.

My heart is with mstevens tonight.
"Once you accept that a child on the autistic spectrum experiences the world in
 a completely different way than you, you will be open to understand how that
 perspective
    is even more amazing than yours."
    To realize the value of nine  months:
    Ask a mother who gave birth to a stillborn.
"Don't piss off old people The older we get, the less 'Life in Prison' is a deterrent."


mstevens

#6
May 17, 2008, 06:52:42 PM
Quote from: herm on May 17, 2008, 06:27:40 PMi hope monday is a great day for you

Meh. I'm on-call next week. I can pretty much guarantee it'll be better than Sunday, though.
2010 Ducati Multistrada 1200S Touring (Rosso Anniversary Ducati)
2009 Ducati Monster 696 (Giallo Ducati) - Sold
2005 Ducati Monster 620 (Rosso Anniversary Ducati) - Sold
2005 Vespa LX-150 (Rosso Dragone) - First Bike Ever

Casa Suzana, vacation rental house in Cozumel, Mexico

Scottish

#7
May 17, 2008, 07:19:35 PM
Condolences, I can't imaginee how I'd cope. No apologies needed. Be well friend.

You can thank a soldier today, just click the link...
http://www.letssaythanks.com/Home1024.html

mstevens

#8
May 17, 2008, 08:23:38 PM
Quote from: WannaDucBad on May 17, 2008, 07:19:35 PMcan't imaginee how I'd cope.

You know, it's amazing what you can cope with when you have absolutely no choice whatsoever.
2010 Ducati Multistrada 1200S Touring (Rosso Anniversary Ducati)
2009 Ducati Monster 696 (Giallo Ducati) - Sold
2005 Ducati Monster 620 (Rosso Anniversary Ducati) - Sold
2005 Vespa LX-150 (Rosso Dragone) - First Bike Ever

Casa Suzana, vacation rental house in Cozumel, Mexico

Count Desmo

#9
May 17, 2008, 08:30:51 PM
Damn, my heart goes out to you.  I gave my little girls an extra hug and told them they were from someone who really needed them.

Be strong, man.

Howie

#10
May 17, 2008, 08:43:53 PM
I can only imagine the loss you feel.  My heart goes out to you.

IZ

#11
May 17, 2008, 08:58:55 PM
After holding a fellow DMF'ers newborn baby a couple days ago..

so small and helpless..

I couldn't even imagine that kind of pain!! 

TOUGH!!

:-[
2018 Scrambler 800 "Argento"
2010 Monster 1100 "Niro" 
2003 Monster 620 "Scuro"



Quote from: bobspapa on May 29, 2011, 08:09:57 AMThis just in..IZ is not that short..and I am not that tall.

bigiain

#12
May 17, 2008, 09:32:59 PM
Quote from: mstevens on May 17, 2008, 05:09:30 PM
Tomorrow is my daughter's birthday. She would be 17 years old and likely making me crazy if she hadn't died at 16 months of a brain tumor.

make the beast with two backs.

That's all I've got to say...

big (oh, also that I agree with your choice to stay off the bike right now...

somegirl

#13
May 17, 2008, 11:24:15 PM
Feeling for you. :(
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