Dont work on your bike if your angry or depressed !!!!

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Jerry,
You seem like a intelligent and educated man who has seen fair amount life. So, please, please stay away from psychiatrists and other sorts of "head-doctors". They are very capable of making themselves sound reasonable. You can do that yourself as well. Anti-depressants only make you numb. They are fine for taking the edge of and getting a good night sleep but wont cure you.

I can see I'm going against the grain already and am afraid that my other advices wouldn't be as optimistic (even if I identify whit your problems) as others that were written here so I shall stop.

Best of luck Jerry.
Hope you will find something...

i'll agree and disagree.

Jerry, you need to find SOMETHING that works for you. be it a professional, medications, or a new goal. but knowing what I know about life, there are a lot of reasons not to just give up.