Joining the Club...

[Stella]

At the risk of sounding like Tony Robbins or Oprah or Dr. Seuss, make it a good day and plan for a new future. 
Can't control (and often times can't understand) other people and what they do or say or how they act even
when you know them well.

If I were you, I'd high tail it to a counselor and dump on them. It might take several visits to find the "right" counselor
who you mesh with but you might feel better.

I'm trying to figure out (a fruitless, sleepless effort) why a douche canoe slashed his 5 month old puppy this morning. 
I'll never know.  But I know that pup will live and will find a great forever home.  She hit rock bottom through no
fault of her own but now it's all up from here for her!    (Same for you.)   

[fastwin]

What piece of shit would slash a puppy? Give me that f#@kers address!

Sorry for the thread jack... but do you blame me? 

[Stella]

pm sent.

[RAT900]

Hey Adam?....we're all just humans....

and the best we can do is to fix whatever shit we can..........

and simply outlive the rest of it that we can't fix


I recall being deep in the shit of bad marriage detonating....

it was all so goddam awful I started laughing one day in the middle of it...

my life had become a really bad piece of "Performance Art" and I got to be the chief critic of the show

I was astonished at the absolute perfection of the suckage, like a perfectly cut, flawless diamond of shit...no aspect or facet of it was redeeming

I became amazed at the sheer absurdity of my delusional plans of a happy life,

how completely I had bull-shitted myself with unwarranted optimism

when, in fact,  I was little more than a chimp parading around in a costume chock full of conceits, idealistic notions and hubris

when, in reality, I was the one who had subconsciously architected an interpersonal Rube Goldberg contraption of self-inflicted suffering

and I became embarrassed at how my unbridled self-confidence and absolute faith in the worst possible choice of partners....

emotionally degenerated into a 3 Stooges slap, gouge and eye-poking fest


dust yourself off and start looking forward

[Adamm0621]

Stella... I'm seriously considering the counseling route.  It just sucks that the only real outlets at my disposal are Army chaplains or the mental health clinic.  Neither of which I think are going to help much.  I had a few hours of one-on-one "therapy" with a young woman that I met in Florida and it did me a world of good.  In the long run though, it wouldn't hurt to have another outlet.  As for the puppy thing... some people don't deserve to live.

Rat... you and I are going to have to go out for a few drinks when I get back.

[RAT900]

Rat... you and I are going to have to go out for a few drinks when I get back.

I would look forward to that...

oh and do consider the therapy/counseling thing....

my intro to it was under juvenile court order when I was in 8th grade, it was the education of a lifetime....

they thought I was make the beast with two backsed up because I torched the music teacher's prized Mustang in the school parking lot....

he had humiliated and reduced some poor geek kid to tears in class in front of all of us....

hate-filled bastard enjoyed bullying kids....

but the silver-lining was learning about human behaviors...great stuff from where I was coming from

[Langanobob]

Rat900, I'm reading "Kingdom of Fear" and the transition between HST and your posts is seamless...hope that is a good thing!

Adam, not much I can add to what's already been said, we're with you and thanks for your service.

Bob

[RAT900]

<laughing>  before HST there was JP Donleavy,

nomadic upbringings can yield interesting perspectives